Story archives - tag: "depression"


The scar on my wrist reminds me that I was once very sad but now the ring on my finger tells me it is possible to be happy, very happy.

tags: depression suicide happiness marriage reminder [add]

2013-11-20 07:32:58 / Rating: 599.25 /

Quinn Roberts

When the psychiatrist asked me whether I suspected that my depression might be hereditary, I told him I could not say as most of my family had committed suicide some time ago.

tags: depression bipolar disorder manic depression family true [add]

2013-06-30 13:21:43 / Rating: 276.5 /


I was the only one who could swim and could've jumped in to save him in time, but I just stood there in shock and will now never forgive myself.

tags: death child horrible drowning water swim depression [add]

2012-08-01 11:04:16 / Rating: 623 /

Not a Game

The summer that three of my friends committed suicide, my sister convinced me that the voices in my head were them telling their true stories of being murdered.

tags: suicide summer crazy depression [add]

2012-05-01 08:23:26 / Rating: 492.75 /


The irony has never been lost on me that my genetic disease which causes depression also keeps the scars that cover my arms from ever disappearing.

tags: depression disease suicide irony [add]

2012-04-11 09:39:19 / Rating: 420.5 /

Couldn't handle it.

I hope making you biscuits for breakfast made up for walking away from your mental breakdown.

tags: depression breakfast relationships [add]

2011-12-09 14:33:23 / Rating: 294.25 /

kelsie, k-e-l-s-i-e

The lady from suicide hotline spoke to me as if I was five years old.

tags: suicide suicide hotline angry depression anger [add]

2011-11-11 15:06:07 / Rating: 376.5 /


Every time I look at our baby boy, I am reminded of how much I don't want to do this.

tags: parenting mistake baby boy start-over depression [add]

2011-09-30 09:27:37 / Rating: 480.25 /


Finding out that it's diverticulitis, not stomach cancer, is only a small relief, as my favorite foods are now off limits.

tags: food disease cancer depression [add]

2010-10-19 15:21:03 / Rating: 395 /


A journal is good... until someone finds it.

tags: depression secrets family uh oh [add]

2010-08-02 13:41:36 / Rating: 596.5 /

Im sorry

I am ashamed that it took my daughter writing "therapy" on her birthday wishlist for me to realize that she needed help.

tags: death father therapy obliviousness depression [add]

2010-07-02 14:25:56 / Rating: 802 /

not your average 18 year old

I have received a lot of things that most don't get by 18, PTSD, depression, therapy, violent fantasies, and suicidal thoughts, yet I still haven't had a girlfriend.

tags: 18 PTSD depression therapy violent fantasies suicide girlfriend [add]

2010-06-08 11:53:00 / Rating: 542.5 /

four years ago

No twelve-year-old should have to devote two hours in the middle of the night to trying to prevent a friend from committing suicide.

tags: only twelve depression suicide attempts innocence [add]

2010-05-17 14:43:34 / Rating: 762.75 /


When the doctor asked if there was a history of depression in my family, I said no, but later I realized the two alcoholics and the two suicides by gun probably counted.

tags: doctor depression alcoholic suicide family [add]

2010-03-15 14:37:41 / Rating: 708.25 /


Now that my sister is depressed, mom says it's a "damnable disease," but when I was depressed five years ago, I was just "a bitch".

tags: playing favorites parenting bias depression screwU2 [add]

2010-01-22 09:15:36 / Rating: 760 /


Professional help isn't really helping.

tags: depression bipolar sigh [add]

2009-08-03 15:57:58 / Rating: 502.75 /

that guy

You've been drunk and stupid and violent, but you've never hurt me as much as you did tonight, sober, when you told me I can't help you.

tags: depression [add]

2009-07-17 11:04:14 / Rating: 392.25 /


Soon my monthly therapy sessions were replaced with monthly orthodontist visits.

tags: humor childhood depression braces [add]

2009-05-21 15:45:45 / Rating: 536.5 /

Teach Me

I had to divorce him when I realized I had sunk to the unconscious choice of not wearing my seat belt anymore.

tags: divorce depression reclaiming my life [add]

2009-02-06 14:12:48 / Rating: 644.75 /


I don't remember being born, but now I know I regret it.

tags: depression suicidal drama [add]

2008-09-24 11:26:57 / Rating: 619.75 /


The Sufjan Stevens-induced ecstasy flashback made me realize how much I disliked my life in an unaltered state.

tags: Sufjan Stevens ecstasy drugs depression lonely [add]

2008-08-19 14:46:59 / Rating: 640.5 /


My three-year-old son brought me my anti-depressants, asked me to take them and come outside and play.

tags: depression kids pills best medicine in the world [add]

2008-07-29 13:52:56 / Rating: 1086 /

Travis B

My spare tire was also flat.

tags: sad tire driving depression hopelessness spare [add]

2008-06-12 14:31:49 / Rating: 905.5 /

Fat Girl

I have to choose between anti-depressants and weight loss, when half the reason I'm depressed is because I'm fat.

tags: fat depression no way out [add]

2008-05-15 11:46:25 / Rating: 667 /


This year, on my birthday, I will eat alone at the restaurant where I spent my happiest birthday which eventually turned into the birthday which made me despise birthdays.

tags: birthday sad depression lesbian coming out [add]

2008-04-07 14:31:29 / Rating: 794.75 /


Being a kindergartner feeling as if he didn't deserve to live should have been an early indication that there's something wrong with me.

tags: depression childhood [add]

2008-03-10 10:17:34 / Rating: 713.5 /


I still hate it that mom did not take me seriously until I was on antidepressants.

tags: depression [add]

2008-02-25 21:25:58 / Rating: 473 /

Sadly So

I realized suddenly as the music started, that I had never seen my mother dance.

tags: motherhood depression dancing [add]

2008-02-13 13:19:15 / Rating: 769.75 /


While on my way to the office this morning, I realised I really should be less careful when crossing the road.

tags: work depression hate excuses [add]

2008-01-22 18:13:54 / Rating: 660.75 /


Grandma hasn't been the same since she flipped her SUV into that ravine.

tags: grandma accident depression [add]

2007-12-27 12:23:20 / Rating: 591.75 /


Until last year I never realized that people in mental institutions really do color and put jigsaw puzzles together.

tags: depression suicide humor [add]

2007-12-13 00:18:46 / Rating: 705 /


This has been the worst birthday ever.

tags: birthdays finals stress depression [add]

2007-12-13 00:17:43 / Rating: 501.5 /


I used to take my grandmother's ring off my finger before I bent over the toilet after every meal out of fearing my grandmother could see me.

tags: eating disorder depression family [add]

2007-10-23 11:55:57 / Rating: 747.5 /


My boyfriend got really excited when I ate this morning.

tags: eating disorder weight loss depression [add]

2007-10-11 11:18:18 / Rating: 682 /


I didn't want my mother to know that I had cut myself again, so after trying (and failing) to cover it up with makeup I scratched at that area until it turned red and pretended that it was an eczema rash.

tags: self-harm secrets depression [add]

2007-10-03 10:01:16 / Rating: 552.25 /


"What the hell is wrong with you?" he vehemently spat, and I bit my lip in confusion wondering where to begin my heartbroken monologue.

tags: fights depression [add]

2007-10-02 15:43:29 / Rating: 503 /

don't breed your dog

If I see another dog get dumped at the shelter, I just might save it or kill myself.

tags: dogs suicide depression animal [add]

2007-09-26 07:57:38 / Rating: 689.25 /


I didn't know I was pregnant, but now that I've lost it, I won't ever tell him because I refuse to let a baby be a trump card.

tags: miscarriage break-ups depression pain moving on [add]

2007-09-26 01:06:25 / Rating: 735.5 /


The same year I started cutting in high school, Christmas lost its magic.

tags: christmas cutting depression [add]

2007-09-19 15:05:30 / Rating: 603 /


Had I gone back to sleep when I saw his number, he'd be dead, but I still feel like a bad friend.

tags: overdose suicide friendship depression confusion [add]

2007-09-18 13:13:54 / Rating: 793 /


I thought the anti-depressants were working until I came back to work.

tags: depression blah anti-depressants [add]

2007-09-10 12:11:12 / Rating: 541.75 /


I stopped being depressed when I saw a snippet of the Jerry Springer episode entitled "It all ends with a pig", and I knew that my life wasnt that bad.

tags: depression tv life [add]

2007-07-27 09:28:00 / Rating: 582.25 /


It used to annoy me when I would let a tear run all the way down my face, but I've been crying so much lately that I don't even notice until my shirt gets wet.

tags: depression crying [add]

2007-07-17 13:08:22 / Rating: 581.75 /


I had been crying for hours, so I felt a little silly when the moment he told me he was on his way right over, I stopped.

tags: crying love humor irony depression [add]

2007-07-09 10:09:16 / Rating: 756.25 /


As it turns out, today was just one more in an endless succession of days where the desire to get out of bed and go in to work marginally outweighed the desire to put my head in the oven and turn on the gas.

tags: suicide despair depression futility hopelessness [add]

2007-07-06 11:19:55 / Rating: 880.75 /


They say that depression runs in my family, but that doesn't help me much right now.

tags: depression family [add]

2007-05-31 14:54:40 / Rating: 693 /


Sometimes, weddings where you don't know anyone are worse than funerals where you know who's in the coffin.

tags: strangers death loneliness depression marriage [add]

2007-05-29 15:58:04 / Rating: 801 /


The work week seems to be a repeating blip that echoes a nasty scratch on the record of life.

tags: work life depression money time week weekend loneliness lonely sad music scratch skip world economy social crisis freedom [add]

2007-02-12 12:32:42 / Rating: 1004.75 /


If I wasn't depressed, I wouldn't have fallen for you, but I was, and I did, and I'm sorry for what's about to happen.

tags: unrequited depression apology love [add]

2006-11-21 09:23:41 / Rating: 692.25 /


I said I was Vegan, then I went and bought a hamburger and quickly threw it up.

tags: eating disorder lies vegetarian vegan bulimia depression [add]

2006-10-25 11:03:09 / Rating: 721.75 /


My brother bet me $5 that you and I would grow old together, and two days later when you broke up with me I bought five boxes of the most bittersweet twinkies I have ever eaten in my life.

tags: bet brother twinkie love loss breakup depression [add]

2006-10-22 01:34:27 / Rating: 992.25 /


Even though she very nearly destroyed me when she dumped me without a word, twenty three years later I let her do it again.

tags: heartbreak love depression [add]

2006-10-01 14:19:54 / Rating: 661.75 /

Rob Sanderson

I sat there that night and realized that all my life I’ve been trying to eliminate the things that cause me to get depressed, instead of the depression itself.

tags: depression sad sadness realization change [add]

2006-09-14 07:14:25 / Rating: 1062.25 /